I'm in such a better place today! You all could have been very harsh with me.. in fact, I would have deserved it! I was being super whiney and just plain feeling sorry for myself.

The biggest thing is that it really wasn't at all about him. Sure, I thought for a second maybe I should have just stuck with him and lived in seperate bedrooms or something but not because I had the feeling that I couldn't live without him.

For some reason, I'm always in a rush. I immediate results and I'm kind of in limbo. I've set a goal for myself to get out of the parent's house by August - September which has already made me feel more independent (kinda)!

I actually do have a child with him... so unfortunately, I do have to see him but he affects me so little anymore. For some reason I have to keep telling myself 30 is not that old, 30 is not that old. Really, I know it's not but I feel like it is sometimes. I know everyone doesn't have it perfect but I just feel like the divorce kind of messed up my whole "idea" of a perfect life!

Thanks everyone!!