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Dear Pathetic Sad Man,
I endured 8 years of your alcoholic, drug addict, narccistic crap and I am all done! You reeled me in and I married you out of obligation which was my mistake! Boy did I pay for that one. I was a great wife, a great partner and mother to all our children. You critcized me to the point of tears, abused me and our children thru your narc rages and tried your best to control us all. You did not succeed in the end. Your pathetic, mean and evil and have only yourself to blame for your unhappiness. Your own children think you are an ass and your delusions only are believed by you and your sick family and addict friends. Your own daughter left you because you are sick and twisted and now lives with me. What does that say about you?
I gave you heart, soul and wallet supporting you and our family virtually by myself. You took everything for granted and dove head first into your sea of delusions! The abuse you put upon us is unthinkable and exposes you for what you really are! There is no hiding from yourself and eventually Karma will kick you in the ass! You talk shit about everyone and it will come back to you. You talk shit to make yourself seem the bigger man but Napoleon I have news for you, I and your children are not buying it, We are smarter a nd better than that. I will spend the rest if my life thanking god you are gone and making sure I am healed and that I give that resource and gift to our children you abused. Newsflash Jackass! The kids know I am the rock solid parent and you are pathetic and they cannot turn to you for shit! You are a fucking joke and should stock up on
sunscreen because where people like you end up you are going to need it! You and my piece of crap father can be roomates! Say hello to e worthless piece of shit and tell him good bye asshole!
How's the weather?
You had the world layed at your feet, a beautiful successful caring wife and 5 beautiful children! You shit all over it and now you can have your sad life acting like a teenager drinking yourself into
oblivion surrounding yourself with losers like you! I pity your next victim for you only seem to get worse as the days wear on...God to think you are a new an improved asshole is frightening and
sad! I bid you farewell and tell you god will get you better than I ever will! I will surviive, hell I will
thrive! You will always be a pathetic piece of worthless humanity, waste of human flesh and bone.
You care nothing for anyone elses feelings and never will. Your future is dark and black like your
soul. I have peace knowing that I am worthy of so much more and loved and respected by
everyone but you and your sick ass circle of dysfunction. May you all rot in hell!
You may sense by now I am angry and anger is good! Not your type of anger but the healing
kind! Your anger is a vicious circle of denial and endless empty hole! Go down your hole and
never come out sad little man! What once attracted me now repulses me! I am no longer your fish
on the hook, your pawn or your muse to use! The only sad thing is I will have to deal with you in
some way for the rest of my life because we have a son together! I will make sure he turns out
nothing like you! He will see you as the other kids do for the sad piece of garbage you are.
You have driven away everyone who truly loved you and stood by you and we all realize now you never really loved us, it was all all lie to serve your selfish needs! You are so phony and only care about
yourself! Your children and I are objects, possessions and punching bags to you. Well we quit,
we resign from that slavery and abuse. I will teach our children through genuine love and devotion
that they are amazing wonderful lovable people who deserve to be treated with respect and
kindness. I will make sure they understand your illness to minimize the damage you do and learn
to stand up and walk away. Your oldest daughter and my two girls have already done it so will
the rest.
So this is goodbye, so long and Adios! Your reign of terror has come to an end! Life is too short to waste it on you, I DESERVE BETTER AND OUR CHILDREN DESERVE BETTER! YOU WILL. REAP WHAT YOU SEW! HAVE A LIFE AS WONDERFUL AS YOU REALLY ARE!!!! IT SHOULD BE A DOOZY! AMF!
Truly done and disgusted,
The Best Thing That Ever Happened to YOU!
Strong, powerful and truthful.....
April 10, 2012 - 1:18pm — Layla.........just doesn't get any better than this!
Kris, I can SO relate to you and what you have written here it is SCARY! Although I am sad for all of us here, I find comfort in knowing I am not alone. I hope you do too.
Onward and upward, better days ahead. Amen to that!
: )
love~ Layla
Thanks
April 10, 2012 - 1:51pm — Breakingfree24Layla,
You were the first to reach out to me and I will never forget that! You are kind and wonderful. I am sad you can relate so much for I know how much you endured and the struggle you have been through. I think the worst is the guilt I have for what I put my kids through and exposed them to being married to that scum! My daughters are strong and fought him all the way. Good for them for succeeding where I failed for a while. We now are fighting together. They tell me I am the greatest mom and that I deserve better, how sweet are they! I am the luckiest woman in the world and have so much to be thankful for in my life. I am thankful for friends and family like you!
God bless you and your boys! Please share your story with me...I would love to be there for you too!
Hugs and love,
Kris
It's guilt over my kids that is by far the worst for me too!
April 10, 2012 - 2:11pm — LaylaI know I am over the PD. I know he is disordered and me and my boys will move on but it's the guilt of putting those innocent boys through HIM that will haunt me to my grave I fear!
You know, I have told bits and pieces of my story here on the forum but never officially typed it out. I guess I should do that. I have always been "ready" to tell my story, just not sure how to tell eight years of hell in a "nutshell"... : )
I too am not divorced yet from the abuser. I DREAD going through that with him. As for now, I have a stay away/no contact order in place so I can heal in peace. He hoovered constantly when I had him removed from the home as these types of abusers do. It just feels so GOOD to not be under his thumb anymore but I am still very, very angry and he traumatized me so badly. This is truly a process that will take much time. I am only at 10 months NC right now.
love~ Layla
I'm here for you!
April 10, 2012 - 3:23pm — Breakingfree24Layla,
If you want to tell your story I am here to support, understand and listen. You are my friend and I know pain you are in. I too dread the divorce process with my N as well. He is going to be a dandy! My ears, arms and heart are wide open for you when you are ready. Would love to talk or IM sometime. I think you and I have a lot in common and can give each other strength, hope and support. Please know how much your reaching out has meant and hope I can do the same for you. You are truly amazing that you have gone 10 months NC! I have not been that lucky. He still haunts me today.
All my love and support,
Kris
loved this
April 10, 2012 - 12:13pm — no more an echoHi Breakingfree24,
It felt empowering for me to read this- it MUST HAVE been for you to WRITE it!
I commend you for your insights and your dedication and love to your children.
You sound like a strong and smart woman! (And I'm glad you are FREED of this monster!)
Thanks for the kind words
April 10, 2012 - 1:25pm — Breakingfree24Dear friend,
I am only at the beginning of my journey with many more steps to go. This is only the start. I am still married to the monster and only separated now for just over a year. I still have to divorce the beast. That should be fun! I am truly devoted to my children and for the first time in my life to myself. I will thrive and come back stronger and smarter. No more NPD for me! It brings me such joy that my letter empowered you and yes it felt good to write it...I think I may write a few more as time goes on just for me. I am trying hard to live in the moment and move forward on the path. I wish you peace, love and kindness and true compassion for your self. We are bonded in sisterhood and I will always be there if you need me.
How are you doing in your journey? My thoughts and prayers are with you!
Kris