its like all my senses are telling me to stop.
but i continue to clamber after the crumbs.. god damn crumbs again.
so lonley and lost in my own soul, still not truly happy in my own skin...
what is it about narcs that is so enticing and alluring.
Handsome, aloof, playing very hard to get...
they pretend so well, so polite and intertested in you, at that start you are not sure...
they you give in to intimacy or sex even..
i wasnt sure but now im really feeling the red flags.
I am still clearly not vibrating on the level I need to be..
else why am i still manifesting this experience.
i am yearning the company of a person who is calling all the shots. When we date and when we text and when we chat on the phone.
he only comes too see me if it convenient and doesn't respond to questions about making plans for future engagements togther.
im stupid cos i already feel pretty strongly for this person. I have had dates after my ex narc husband and i dated a man from Pakistan who was lovely to me but this is the first guy to really make me hot and bothered and excited at the very thought of him and YES he is another dog damn bloddy narc..
OOOOOh im so mad and sad..
does the narcissistic experience mean we have to end up alone or else deal with the heartache of dating.. I hate dating and being a single mum. i want what i was promised - a marriage and a safe family home, the kids and the dream.. there are too many narcs out there. its actually clearly not safe to date these days..
Ha and even if you keep ur wits about u..
its the' bad ones' we apparently go for.
and he is a bad one... and all ive been doing since I met him is scratching in the dirt for his crumbs. Its that thing you know.. where you get a lovely night or 2 togther and you feel 'yes whoo hoo he is the one' and then he pulls back and you dont hear from him at all. its confusing and bewlildering..
i wish i cud put this all back in its box..
put the lid on.
once u fall for a narc, he has you, and when he has you watch out..
the trick ladies is not to fall for a narc in the first place.
dont let him in your door.
and definitly dont open your heart..
anyone actually know how you do that??
i know i am in dangerous territory right now.
i have that high alert feeling, cos they like to keep you guessing, will he ring, will he come see you... the narcs lines of comunication are never clear..
fk the crumbs.
i need help ladies and guys..
anyone else encountered this stuff after in dating??