I am five days NC and it is killing me. I am obsessively stalking his profile on his dating site and I can't stop looking at his wife's Facebook page. What can I do to settle my mind down? I am quite proud that I've gone these five days but it almost seems harder the more time goes by. I want him to know how horrible he was to me. I want him to know that he did actually hurt me, even though he promised he wouldn't. He said I was the sweetest most compassionate person he'd ever met. How did he screw with that? I want him to somehow be punished for treating me this way. I am sure I am just one of countless women who he has duped. I just don't understand how I feel so yucky and he gets off without a blink of the eye. And is there any way his wife doesn't know what kind of monster she is married to? Should I tell her? And then a very small part of me wonders if he is just extremely flawed and I need to be a good friend and forgive him and try to help him? Thanks for letting me ramble and for giving me encouragement. I don't think I could have gone the past five days without this board.