I have just seen the ex in a queue of traffic... i have no idea if he saw me .. I am now shaking and feeling sick and crying uncontrollably... I was hoping when I saw him he would be repulsive to me but he looked so normal.... I hoped i had done so much work and put so much distance between us that he would be loathsome.... its been almost three months since I saw him.
I feel very under seige and not sure how to take power back... i feel like moving out of the area to a new town and getting the hell away from it all.
I feel so betrayed, hurt and angry. I feel that its all been so unfair and that I've been royally shat on by him and by other friends...it feels like the best idea is to shut up shop and move.
I think my emotions are out of control at the moment. I feel paranoid about the calls I was getting ... is he going to contact me ... will I meet someone else... will i ever get over this . Will i ever be able to walk out into my own neighbour hood relaxed and happy?
I seem to have been in control for a while and now I'm having somewhat of a relapse!
does anyone feel the same?