I left my narc husband today, again, and went back to my apartment. I have been going back and forth,,,,,I have been staying with him the past few weeks, but I left again today, My "punishment" for "abandoning" him was that he won't tell me anymore what he is doing, who he is with, etc. Last night, when he said I was not acting right (he said I was creating chaos, and have a "poor, angry presentation"), so he packed a bag right in front of me and said he was going to go out with one of the many women he had invitations from. He needed to take a bag and his medication, "just in case I get invited to spend the night". He said he can do what he wants cuz I abandoned him. Anyway, I left this morning and told him I am no longer working on our marriage if he continues to talk to women (I cant' believe I have been reduced to this....I left and moved out and now I was staying with him taking even more abuse the past 2 weeks). He just called me at 1:00am, woke me up, and said he took another woman to church and to the beach. He said if I did not come over right now, he was going to spend the day with her tomorrow and if I come over there tomorrow while she is there, she will "flatten me". He keeps talking really loud and won't let me say anything....then hangs up. Calls back, starts his crap, then hangs up. I get more and more upset, trying to call back (which he won't answer) and sending text messages trying to explain to him how wrong it is for him to be threatening me like this......I get so full of RAGE, but I keep engaging. My head is spinning and I don't even feel like a person anymore......Does any of this sound familiar?? I KNOW I MUST START NO CONTACT WITH HIM......I do well for a few hours, then I answer the phone. I know he really will go out with some else tomorrow, and it really upsets me......WHY DO I EVEN CARE????? I'M GLAD I FOUND THIS SUPPORT GROUP.....maybe I will get through this!
Thanks for letting me vent again......Joy