I am not sure if this a good thing or not. But I feel good today. Best day as of yet. Not even sure how many days NC......not counting anymore. I worry when I have a good day because then I wonder if the shits gonna hit the fan tomorrow? But today I feel good, empowered, close to back to funny, lovable, cheerful movingforwardnow. Hmmmmm???? Do I have anything to really attribute to this feeling? This forum for one. Wednesdays seem to be good for me becuase I so look forward to Group on Wednesday nights. It's sunny here. Windows are open. Kids seem happy. We are all feeling good here in our house. Didn't think of the "manipulator" much today. I did have therapy this morning, then met with an old therapist this evening. She was actually someone who counseled manipulator and I together for awhile. She said she was happy to see me breaking free from him. I am not sure if that helped give me some validation from an outsider that knows him that breaking free was the right thing to do??? Then I got to thinking, I wish I could bottle up these "good" feelings. I'd drink that bottle next time I was feeling down and I'd share a shot glass with all of you on here as well. Just being weird right now. So raise your glass and chug away friends!