You are right, Sparrow. I did struggle the last time I was out with my gf's.

For the part of him cheating....we did not live together. I caught him 3 or 4 times with OW at his place. One of the times, I knew something was up when he would tell me he was going out with his "buddies" because he doesn't have any "buddies". Another time was when I made a surprise visit to his apartment complex after he told me he was at his parents house, I knew better!! Found him on his balcony with another woman (52 year old hag from hell!!! Thinks she looks like Chrissy from Three's Company!! lmao!) Another time was when he showed up at my house wasted and I had to drive him home after he arrived unanounced after one of his d/d's. He invited me up to his apt and the only reason I went up was because I saw a strange cup on his balcony table. When we got to his door, he started acting crazy saying I could come in but couldn't go past the door. ???!! So I did cause I knew something was up, well sure enough when I got in I saw her purse on the coffee table. I tried to get past him and he drug me across the kitchen floor and literally set me outside the door. Then when I got down the road, FOUR MINUTES LATER, he sent me a text telling me to not act like that and to please come back. I did NOT!! And til this day he will defend what he did and justify it saying he HAD to do it because I had gone past the door like we had agreed on. REALLY SICKO????!!! You invite me into YOUR house knowing that she (the alcoholic friend) was there but apparently your ass was so sloshed that you fucking forgot that she was there until you saw the look on my face when I saw her purse! FUCK YOU AND YOUR LITTLE TRASHY FRIEND!! EVEN YOUR OWN BROTHER SAID SHE LOOKED DIRTY!! That was back in July of last year. And of course like the dumbass that I am, I eventually went back. NO FUCKING MORE! Yes I'm pissed now, sorry. Just thinking and talking about his bs pisses me off! I'm more pissed at myself though for continuing to go back after all the shit he did to me...the cheating, the verbal abuse, the physical abuse, the emotional abuse, the lying, just ALL THE BS!

Anyways, back to my point...yes, my friends, he actually claimed he never cheated with those women!!! He would lie to me about where he was and what he was doing. He had other women in his apartment without my knowledge. The alcoholic he used to date several years ago. The 52 year old, I found out that they spent new years eve of 2010 together behind my back! He broke plans with me claiming he needed to fly back to Pittsburgh, he's from there, for new years eve. Folks, he had just got back from being there for over a week the day he claimed he was flying back. I'm not stupid!! So about 3 months later when I was going through his phone, I found a text convo between those two new years eve day and she was talking about her being at one of those sex stores and getting something to wear for him that night. When I brought it to his attention, he actually blamed me for him doing that...claiming all I did was nag him that week of new years. DAMN!! Just talking about this shit makes me not want to ever see him again even more!!!!