Stop contacting him, Snowflake. Just let him be, so you can heal. I know where you are at, and I called a friend, I cried out loud, I WROTE in my journal, I slept, I cleaned my house, I read a book, I watched a show, I called a friend, and cried - BUT I did not call or contact exn whenever I had a chance. I know he's an addiction, and I know it's painful. I prefer a tooth pulled without drugs to what I've been through.

I did contact him a total of four times after I left him - one week after D&D; six weeks after D&D; four months after D&D; and five months after D&D. The first two times were calls I had made; the last two were actual visits to his house. I wish I hadn't done that, but I did. It's been almost a year for me, and there has been contact because we lived and worked so near each other that it was impossible not to see each other. Now, he has moved and resigned - thank God for that and I'm working on me. Still challenging as heck, but I want to move along.

It still hurts, but what can I do? Really what can you do? Can you make him feel sorry and remorseful? Can you? I called a trusted friend when I had felt the urge to talk to him or cuss him out. I'd call the friend and admit what I wanted to do and asked if I should or not. I was fortunate my friend just wanted me away from him and she DID NOT encourage ANY contact with him. She'd hear me out, listen, empathize, and encourage me to be the person I'm meant to be; that I had too much great traits to lose on one man who DID NOT care for me.

ExN would have loved the drama of me calling and texting him. He would have loved to tell people how crazy and unstable I was - because that's what he said to me, I did not want to prove him right. Leave it alone - it is HARD work...stop contacting him. You are not teaching him any lessons about how great you are or how you hold him in contempt. He sure loves feeling like he is right though.

Stop playing with fire...do you want something to happen?

this is pure hatred.

I told him I was bored with him. He will f'ing hate that. Past caring now.

This is IT.

NC starts tomorrow..properly..seen all the tricks now..and I am bored, really bored.

The silent treatment bores me, he bores me, what a loser no more time going to be wasted on him.

Then scream and cry...but please get serious about closing up all the cracks in your house. The power of God and the universe is inside you girl, this situation ends when you say it ends.

Love,
Lynn