indifferent - weird?

indifferent - weird?
Posted January 27, 2012 - 1:10pm
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So today I am indifferent about narcboy. Weird for me as I usually go back and forth between sadness and anger. Not normal sadness, but gut wrenching sadness and not normal anger but all consuming anger. Today I woke up and didn't even think of him until I got to work. That never happens. Then once I thought of him, it was like thinking of a stranger. No other way to explain it, just indifferent. What's that about?

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juliamarie's picture

Don't question it...

January 27, 2012 - 11:18pm — juliamarie

When you have good days....REJOICE!!! It's such a great sign that you are healing. I remember I actually felt guilty at first when I had good days. How messed up is that?

Pretty soon you will realize that your good days far outnumber your bad days....

Hunter's picture

Today's a good day.. Hunter

January 27, 2012 - 2:12pm — Hunter

Today's a good day..

Hunter

alicat's picture

I am there myself! I love it.

January 27, 2012 - 2:06pm — alicat

I am there myself! I love it. I just have had enough and I am so glad I am at the stage where I truly accept how he is. My tears are gone! I'm so glad you are feeling the same!

Run4it's picture

Indifference

January 27, 2012 - 1:59pm — Run4it

Indifference is a blessing and I love it when he pops into my head and I realize it has been many hours since I last thought of him or the OW.

Enjoy it..

aquabella's picture

I choose to think of these

January 27, 2012 - 1:41pm — aquabella

I choose to think of these moments as a glimpse into the future of my healed self. I don't have whole days of indifference yet, but I do have moments that I'm quite sure I wouldn't have if I hadn't found this resource, and weren't working so hard. We are doing the difficult work to heal ourselves and indifference toward the N. is the fruit of our labor.

xoxo
Lynn