saphire1's story
saphire1's story
soul searching
I joined this site a few weeks ago because I just ended the most horrible relationship of my life with a narc! what I cant believe is I didnt know this about him until after I stopped contact with him and reflected on the entire thing.I honestly thought he loved me, now looking back it was all a lie and Im wondering how did I let this happen?my story is very similar to others I have been reading about here. It has really helped me knowing Im not alone. I met him on line he was charming good looking extremely romantic. I fell for the whole scam. Married him 3 months after meeting him. Thats when the ugliness started. What makes me sick is that I allowed him to completely use and mistreat me in front of my kids. I have hated myself for that. I am independent successful and intelligent.How did this monster find me? Well I have been trying to find myself again, I had to change my number to get rid of him he stalked me for 2 years after I divorced him. It all ended only 2 months ago and he is already engaged after telling me he will never get over me.I feel so compelled to warn her about him, but I have read the blogs on here and I understand that would be wrong. I just feel there must have been some reason I had to experience this.It makes me sick how people think how wonderful he is.I will leave it in God's hands and sincerely hope he doesnt damage this new womans life like he damged mine. When I saw her I felt like I saw myself, like omg he is doing it all over again to someone else. I just wish I could do something about it. He really is a monster in a disguise. The best disguise I ever saw and Im not easily fooled. Its scary knowing how many of them like him are out there. I will never be the same. It has been so hard trying to forget all of it, its in my head constantly. Everything around me is a constant reminder, I feel tormented. I am normally a very strong person too. I am so worried I will never be able to trust anyone again. I really dont have anyone to talk to about him because what he did to me, I am too ashamed to talk about.I am really glad I can at least express my feelings here.
sapphire, I am so sorry.
I'm new here too
Very good advice Dee!
Thank you for the advice I