prinseis33's story

I joined this site in May and I spent a little time on here before going NC from May until the end of June...during that time the N tried to contact me just about once a week or so and I totally ignored him (as hard as it was at times). During that time, I also ran into him twice in June and totally ignored his presence. At the end of July (when I was doing MUcH better, I ran into him at a mutual friends BBQ and I almost walked right out until my friends encouraged me to stay and I believed to be at a point that he didn't phase me and I did great again wouldn't even acknowledge his presence. At the BBQ I was with one of his friends ex-gf, who he knew but they didn't remain in contact. Since I totally ignored his presence he brought me up to my friend while I went to the bathroom and later that evening after the BBQ was over he txt her askin "who was the girl you were with" (meaning me) so I end up going with her back to his house after to "talk" and after bein there 5 minutes I went to leave he was a drunk mess(as usual) and I believe doing drugs. Seeing him that night reminded me of what I did NOT want in my life or miss at all. After that night he continued to try and contact me until 3 days later his father pretty suddenly passed away. When I found out, (4 days after that night) I had a real struggle with whether to contact him or not and because of the type of person I was I caved and reached out. I felt terrible and I guess I hoped after something like this he could change haaaa and treat me right. Right after the father died he had to leave the country for about a month and a half and I decided to keep in touch via a weekly short email or so between us. While he was gone I really struggled with everything but wanted to believe he could come back a changed man and suddenly appreciate me for "coming back". Side note this situation has been going on for five and a half years on and off. He would never commit or be my bf but I trulyyyy believed I was the only girl (for majority of the time or when we were on DEF) I neverrrr had proooof or a reason to really believe otherwise. And I have never been a naive girl. Even allllll my closest gfs believed that althought he was a jerk most of the time and a partier that I was the only girl. Anyways he came back home mid September and the first few wks things w us had seemed to improve nothingggg drastic just not as bad as in the past. This went on for weeks some weeks were bad (he'd get drunk and verbally abuse me type of thing) and one night showed up knocking on my door at 6 am and came in n fell asleep on the couch. Things had got progressively worse and I wanted an out again. Two Saturday's ago he came by alllll day I saw an unsaved number on his caller id and I reallllly thought nothin of it however it called more then once and somehow I remembered it. That monday (last wk) we were textin n he was back to his jerk mean ways. Something made me ask him again if he was messin around with other people. Although right when he came home we discussed that I want nothin to do with him if he wants to also be with other people (which again I never had any reallll suspicion of its just that he wasn't my "bf") even that Saturday before we fooled around I asked. So back to Monday I asked if there was anyone else and like a narc he tried to totally avoid the question etc. and eventually said well I'm single so I can do what I want no? But I'm buys watching the game not talkin about this now. I relieved he was just home alone being a jerk that nite but something told me to say I'm showing up by his house (which I neverrrr do but I thought it was ok cuz he did. I went and he stopped answering my txts, turned off the phone and didn't answer the door. I didn't stay long and on the way home idk why but I called that phone number from sat that I remembered n it was a girl but I didn't speak w her and still believed it was a friends gf or something. Trying to wrap this up, lol last Wednesday this same girl found me on fb and messages me asking if I knew him and when is the last time I saw him. I never seen or heard about her in my lifeeeee. She was very nice about it n just wanted answers n so did I. Turns out he's also been seeing her on n off for two yrs. we talked about everyyyyything and just WOW I was totally mind blown. I didn't contact him after to say shit. He called me last fri morning early and left a voicemail sayin thank you really thank you but you are garbage your a piece of shit etc. his messages to her (which I saw) were more saying how I'm crazy and I don't matter to him and don't listen to me I exaggerate etc. I'm doing okkk considering bcuz thissss is what I needed to get rid of him BUT... I also got a txt Sunday saying never look at me again your a pathetic excuse of a woman and I ignored for awhile til I lost it told him off and changed my number. He said things like don't be jealous, don't be mad i cared about another bitch btw she's 20 of u,etc and side note she's nothin to be jealous of lol yet this Monday he stalked her thru his friends fb and msged her agn how he'll prove it to her he cares and I'm just crazy I mean nothin to him etc....I just don't get WHY?????? Does he truly care about her n was just doing me bcuz he could and now he realizes he fcked up with her and will change for herrr???? Help