Crazy Train's Story

Good Morning All!

I am new to this site and just wanted to thank everyone for sharing their experiences. It feels very reassuring to know that others understand what I'm going through. I have been NC for 4 weeks, but after only 4 months with my N, I can say that he has taken a part of me that will never be the same again. Here's some "amusing" quotes from him.....

"I would never cheat on you if they were buy one, get one, free"

"I wouldn't cheat on you for $180 million dollars"

"I'm going to put you in the closet and you're not going to like it" (His term for the silent treatment)

"I have no reason to lie to you"

"Listen here you sl*t. You're a broke-ass MF. Do not EVER call me again" (When I broke up with him)

"You're so beautiful, you could have anyone you want"

"We're tighter than 2 coats of paint"

Most of these are typical N expressions. This particular character is a good looking, multi-millionaire (by way of daddy), runs around telling everyone that everything the family owns is HIS because he shares the same name as his father. The lyrics of Carrie Underwood's songs "Cowboy Casanova" describes this N perfectly. Add to that his temper tantrums, constant lying, secretive lifestyle, prescription meds addiction & my extensive Google research that uncovered more than 50 arrests... and you can understand why my head is still swirling. Oh & you'll enjoy the fact that he actually admitted to taking NLP training for his job in sales.

My friends nicknamed him the "Crazy Train"....being with him put ME on the train.....I'm smart and successful at my job, but his nonsense had me thinking that I was actually losing my mind. I couldn't eat, sleep, work, etc. When I was in his presence, he was so charming that it literally took my breath away. But in reality, what he took away was ALL my self esteem & my sanity.

I don't wish ill of him because I think that promotes bad karma, but I hope that somehow he will at some point in his life, look back at the chaos he created & feel some remorse. Although, from what I've read, that's just not possible...... so, my therapy appts continue, my friends are a fabulous support system. One day I hope to NEVER think, dream or speak his name EVER AGAIN.