Oh, and it was amazing!!.. magical. I seriously believe something Higher came upon me and lumminate my steps into darkness. I`ve been feeling bad lately, with huuuge pressure from my mom`s crises, and from finding out that the N won some cup, and get to watch tons of ass kissers..and common so called suckers friends, got into his web. I don`t deny the fact that he is indeed good in what he pus his effort,..but hey wait, I`m losing it again, I ws supposed to talk about "ME Day" :)

I was tired and exhausted, and had to make my way up to some colleges, to apply, to at least try to move my life at least a little. There was an enormous hit this day, and broked down, I had a panic attack, in force. From all the stress, obsesing and scandals at home. But it was a strange day, with strange beautiful coincidences for me. And ironic, just after I vented on here, about the progressing evil who`s being worshiped.. I felt scared and vulnerable, but it was so strange, people around me, strangers helped me! Rarely, almost never happens to me. Usually I find angry faces pointed at me, but listen, today was as if people around me could see me for my soul. I mean really, guys asking for my phone number?..After a pannick attack so hard like that one, I stood in the house for hours, never daring to ge out. I even felt some intense passionate "thing" with someone who stood beside me on a bus to home..It was surreal..not exactly the last part, but it surely was a magic day for me. Possibly one of the most strangely beautiful I ever had. It`s like God would be telling me, and picking me up from the floor and cariing me. Usually people don`t really like my face, I got thousands of No`s. And this day suddenly, everyone, stranger or not, helped me to apply to my college.

I don`t know who "hold my hand" this day, but whoever it was, Thank You. Thank you for making me smile and laugh again! It`s ironic, because if you read my post about how such an evil person like ex N, can get away with so much, you see so much changes..I found no other explanation than that someone wanted me to know that there is still good in this world. Even just for a day. My spirit felt free, uncaged..and happy