Hedidntbreakme's Story

When I met this guy and we decided to get in a relationship (AFTER I BEGGED HIM), he made me feel like he was God's gift to this world (why wouldn't i beg to be with him). He asked me to stay home from work, He sexed me from 7:30-3:00p, having an erection, EACH AND EVERYTIME. He hooked me, by the next day he had become a permanent fixture in my house.

I would wait on him hand and foot. foot and hand after i got home from work. Feed him, massage him, give him facials, and then, when it was time for me to go sleep, as soon as my eyes would close, after exhaution, from catering to him...He would wake me up every hour on the hour for sex. I am not sure how i kept my job..He would refuse for me to sleep. If i was at work 8 hours the other 8 hours were dedicated to him and only him.

He told me that he was a signed recording artist "maybe he is" i've never heard anything on the radio. He told me he was model...he had all kinds of photoshoots n his phone and FB (i get weak for a pretty boy). However, he never seemed to go to work (moved into my house without me even realizing it). I go to work, he would call me at lunch time, (because he missed me so much) to come home and bring him lunch...I come home for lunch, he was watching porno, surfing porno on the web...watching men "ghetto gag girls with their penis" and then want to have sex with me. By the time, my day was over at work, he would have a swinger's party or a couple he wanted us to have sex with setup. (I NEVER GOT ANY REST) - I WAS ON A MISSION TO PLEASE THIS PRETTY BOY. The parties ranged from: having sex with just about anyone (and i would watched, he would SEX anything). he was 33 and i watched him have sex with this very old woman (who was at the party she had to be about 70). his eyes rolled around in his head, he didnt care that she was old and aged! other parties, would be gay parites, where he would NOT do anything but i would be the only woman there (and he would want the guys to penetrate me with their fingers)...we would have sex with married couples, his friends, his brothers..........(i know it hurts bad to type).

He made me feel like he was so beautiful, his ex's were models and beautiful and i was the ugly duckling (kinda how i felt growing up) but i am not ugly, when he an i went out - i would get so much attention (he would pretend he didn't see).

anyhow, cut to the chase - he would convince me that i was bisexual, a freak (all of his other girlfriends were) - so i wanted to be better than them - NOTHING WAS EVER ENOUGH. The requests were off the wall: He would always make it known that HE WAS ONLY INTO WOMEN. One occassion, he did the unknown with a man...i was in shock. The next day he acted as it never happened. proceeded to say how much he despise gay men...we never spoke about this ever! (ug he had my mind so bad, i was constantly in competition mode, against his other women, whom, i never met, trying to be everything that he said they were, what a freakn mind f&&K)! The sex acts he would want me to perform on him! What the F&&k!

My rock bottom - (after 20-25 make up and break ups) - He wanted me to bring home a woman so we could have a 3-some. Something he wanted the entire relationship. I never did it. He would even volunteer to bring a woman over since i couldnt do this simple request for him (all of his other girlfriends did this for him)!

I gave this man everything he wanted sexually, nothing was ever enough. (when i think about all of things i did sexually, bringing home a woman should have been a piece of cake for me). He was big into swinger parties....i would have to watch him sex other women and i felt worthless after it was over as well as him wanting me to be with other men..He wanted to be with men too but thats another story...Nothing was ever enough....He started asking me to do his father - who was married to his mother! Oneday, while having sex with me he said "I want you to come over to my house and i sit u on top of the table "like a turkey - instead of an apple in your mouth, i want my dad and brothers to f##K u. Well, that was it.

I made up in my mind that it was OVER! Not to mention he owes $40,000 loans,motorclye,rims for his car, etc! he said he would pay me back! - I told him i no longer wanted to be with him...he came over to my house - proceeded to take the $600 work of perfume and shoes he bought me. Turned around pulled me by my hair and drug me across my bedroom. Told me i was cheating on him and then looked at me at "spit" right in my face.

Eventhough, i changed my phone numbers ASAP, after 1.5 years NC - In december, he emailed me as if nothing happened...a cheap appology and let's act like nothing happened. (he went through a friend of my several times and I eventually i fell for it)

I was a good woman to this man...i thought he was misunderstood, we were "thelma and louise" everything we did was our dirty little secret.

It's hard to tell anyone this stuff because i feel very STUPID, I AM FINANCIALLY FUCKED. BUT MY Emotional and Mental state are all coming back. I went NC 1.5 years.

The past couple of mos i've been in contact with him. He told me to forgive - he knows what he did wrong...i know it's all lies.

i am sure, YOU JUST WANT A CHEAP SEX THRILL! It hurts