Sweetsamm's story...........

I'm finally ready to tell my whole story...I met my ex 5mos after leaving my ex husband(jerk,but not a narc), i went out with him and didn't even like him that much...he was persistent,went out with him again,still not that interested,he tells me hes moving to san diego,i think it was a challenge to see if he would stay for me...he left,we saw each other every weekend,he ends up moving back after 2mos of living there...anyway,together,i think everything is great,he proposes,wedding date set,and i freak....I had been married for 8yrs,met him 5mos after separation,and hadn't even dated..so i broke up with N...BIG MISTAKE....we still talked,i had a new bf....then,i missed him,we get back together after being apart for a year....here is where things change BIG TIME..he's never the same..calls me whore,bitch,etc....even over the littlest things..i feel bad for cancelling wedding the year before,and think i kind of deserve the abuse...he always throws out,i don't love you,never have,i should have never gotten back together with your sorry ass....I had so many hot chicks...etc etc...i would see glimpses of the old guy,so i kept trying....anyway,now he starts being really mean to my son,who's 13at the time....now,this part is really hard for me....he'd be mad at me and call my son horrible names..it hurts to even think about...one time my son made this lego robot thing,it was huge,he made it when he was 7 and kept it..anyway,got into argument with N and he destroyed my son's lego robot....'WHO does that??" i'm sick thinking about it...well,the fights become more and more...he starts grabbing me,hitting me...well,may 31,2007....we get into argument,N,had started keeping all his money..every cent,even though i had been laidoff...no money for groceries,nothing..well,i found his checkbook,and wrote a check for 50dollars and bought groceries..he was drunk and flipped....he beat the crap out of me...he jumped on my back and my face hit the hardwood floor and i knew my nose was broken...bloood everywhere! i told him i needed to go to the hospital..he said no...i said 'you fucking idiot,my nose is BROKEN!' he wouldn't let me leave,he then tried strangeling me..i really really thought i was gonna die..i finally ran out and found some teenagers driving(humiliating) and they drove me to the hospital...I had broken nose,broken ribs,torn acl,cracked collarbone,broken pinky,dislocated thumb,and bruises..............everywhere!! two black eyes from broken nose...anyway,hospital calls sheriff,they arrest N,bust down door...he's saying i started it..so crazy...well,he is prosecuted and convinces me i started it....wants me to testify i started everything..he had a jury trial!!! Well, the jury came to a unanimous decision,GUILTY...N has a felony and is on house arrest for 9mos.....during that time,he's still drinking and probation would randomly show up and i would be HIDING liquer bottles...i swear N has gotten away with so much shit,he thinks he's above the law...WTF was i thinking hiding the shit...anyway,things were ok during the home arrest,(he could work from 7-5), well,after i had our daughter(I'm an idiot),it got horrible,he was basically screwing anything that moved..craigslist,friends,clients,etc.....i finally left him after he told me he wished i would die in a fiery car crash and melt into the steering wheel....and calling my son retarded for the last time.....I'm still and will be dealing with this creep for the next 15yrs,it sucks,but it is what it is.......i don't know this man,nor did i ever know him...BUT, i have a BEAUTIFUL daughter out of the madness...gotta think of the positive....