I just realized today that I don't think of HIM first thing in the morning anymore. Of course, being 200 miles away and NC helps. Changing the only number he knew to call on his phone HELPS. Being by myself and reflecting on ME and what I need to change about myself HELPS. Getting a new place away from everyone connected with him HELPS.

But also to the biggest degree, venting, trading information, seeing I'm not alone in my trauma, helping others with what insight I've gained from this HELPS the most, so thanks you guys!

My relapses of guilt are starting to diminish, I've started working out again and taking pride in being ME. And, anyone of you is welcome to pick my brain for whatever knowledge I've gained so far.

It's starting to seem like a nightmare from which I am slowly coming out of.

Love Lisa