Sorry to start a thread about such a small issue but it is HUGE for me. Today is the first day I havent wanted to cry! All of you guys have been so incredibly supportive its unbelievable. It has been comforting to finally find that their is a name/diagnosis for what has haunted me 20 years. I am still a long way from recovery but Im trying. Ive been carrying around "issues" that resulted from this man for 20 years and that is not gonna go away overnite.

With all that being said, I will say that there is one person on here that has been insturmental in keeping me NC as she provides me support off line. I cant tell you how many times I have wanted to text him while at work and I text her instead and she talks me away from the ledge. I feel accountable to her. I say to myself if she can do it so can I and I think how ashamed I would be to tell her I broke NC though I know she would not judge me. Her story unbelieveably similar to mine.

I know everybody on here probably sees someone whose story seems exactly like yours. I encourage you to reach out to eachother. She has been invaluable to me as we both weed thru our issues from we are left with from 2 rounds with the Narc. She truly has been a gift to me as all of you have been as well.

Heres to Day 14