I was so touched by your response and I am glad you felt encouragement from my experience and perspective. I am sorry you also suffered at the hands of these criminals as I did.

He has been broken and dead all his life, wish I felt strong and wonderful lynn, with work we will all come out of this in a much better place than they will ever achieve. But OMG it takes so much work to get back to where we were, that is the part that really sucks about being a victim that we have to take responsibility for it, if we dont we dont have a chance -

x0x0 warm hugs to you

.i know,i learned my lesson in a very hard way..

I spoke of NC and how painful it is for most of us, I think during that NC we want soo much to answer that call, or text, or even just to hear those caring words they once said to us they feed us more false hope and false illusions and for maybe just one brief moment they once again return to what we thought they were, but it never lasts it only furthers our pain and confusion. We KNOW what REAL LOVE for another human being is and it most certainly does not include physically hurting someone to entertain their sadistic pleasures and wanting to watch someone suffer by watching them be raped, or whatever sick thing they are into.

Aceonelady, I fell so deeply in love with a man who was mentally sick and as they say IT WAS NEVER OUR FAULT and I believe that with all my heart but what I ask myself is How in the hell could someone so NOT RIGHT manage to do this to me, I guess you can call it their psychopath powers which enables them to succeed at what they set out to do to their victims. I have come far, I made it through all the love triangle bullcrap making me believe he had a GF which indeed he does but who cares his treatment of her is also horrible abuse. I wonder how I would like to know that my boyfriend while on duty is out screwing other women and into physically hurting women for pleasure. Oh but of course when he found me I WAS THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE and the GF and he werent doing good, you know that story.

None of that of course matters the ONLY thing that matters and I repeat the ONLY thing that matters is they are forever deranged and always will be and everyone who is with them is taken for a ride to hell and back. Secret hidden sick lives they live and they find victims that will turn themselves inside out for them and love them unconditionally. When we look at this experience 6 months or a year from our extraction I know we can look back and see them for what they truly were. I know all of us wish personally our particular psychopath would self destruct and we would all love to see that, some of us do but most of us probably never will be able to witness it. I do know that the odds are against them in their quest and search in what they live for. When you are set out in life to only hurt others and gain power over them in the end you only end up destroying yourself so they are on a slow path to self destruction and all the money in the world cant save them from that. All the money in the world wont buy them a conscience and the ability to be normal. I truly believe that is their inner torture for the rest of their lives.

My hugs back to you and may we always find strength from each other in knowing it was NEVER our fault and we were never alone.