-Erotic: The most erotic dreams I had of the ex-Psych professor was when I was there, in college. What was weird was that they were NEVER in intimate places like bedrooms. We'd be making out in PUBLIC places like the student activity center. The MOST sensual dreams happened RIGHT before the D&D... by a matter of months.

-Totally ceased. What's strange is that during the D&D the sexual dreams about him ceased completely, like a light turning off.

-The mirage. Very rarely, I dream about the ex-P. Usually, I'm seeking him out on the campus of my college, the campus is ALWAYS surreal and arranged differently. I'll see the back of his head, or his back... and he vanishes. Then, since this is a dream, I'll go off in search of something else and not feel disappointed, for some reason. It's like I go on a search, don't find what I'm looking for, and think "oh, well." I dismiss it with a shrug.

-The garbage. This one happened recently. I dreamt I was confronting the ex-P, giving him a handful of nasty garbage-candy wrappers,etc, awful, toxic, unsanitary stuff, putting it in his bare hands (he was always a neat freak) He asked,"Why are you giving me this?" My response was "because that's how you treated me." He looks increasingly pained, and I keep smiling, smiling, and enjoying it.

But that's me. Every dream is different. Every dreamer is different.

I have nightmares every night. seems like forever, had to turn on light last night and was so shaken I e-mailed Betty to delete my story. I didn't send it though. He can't e-mail, text or call he's been blocked. I no longer look on FB. this is day 60 NC. I look forward to a time when I am able to help others.

Do something special for yourself today and keep moving forward. I still dream about him as well, is that our minds trying to process???? Just choose not to stay there, tell yourself you feel great and smile and fake it till you make it!!