I am struggling..
I am struggling..
I don't know if my ex was a narc, but those have you who have read my story know that it was an unhealthy relationship.
We've been broken up for nearly 6 months, and I'm at 17 days of NC. The longest I've made it without speaking to him since the break up was 34 days. I've always initiated contact. We slept together a month ago. We were just going to talk, but the second we saw each other he started kissing me. I let him take advantage of me. He dated a beautiful girl 1 month after we broke up. He admitted to having sex with her, and I still slept with him. I also slept with him without protection.
I begged for him back, and he told me that he wants me to go love someone else, but also told me he hopes maybe one day we will find our way back to each other.
SO…what more do I need to hear? Why can’t I just snap out of it? Why would I ever want to spend my life with someone that can give me up so easily? Have sex with me knowing I’m hurting so much?
My self-esteem is shot. I still feel like I screwed things up. While some days I am so strong, I know deep down I’m hoping he will contact me. Not because I want to spend my life with him, but because I want my dignity back. I want to feel worthy, wanted, beautiful again. He was my first boyfriend at 21. Now I’m 23 and guys don’t want to date me. I can’t stop crying. I miss him so much.
I was you . I thought no one
You are SO young. You're
You're a great example NinjaGirl
I'm sorry I haven't been
sarah787
find our way back to each other?
Honey this is all a very
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Betty
I agree with agnesmurphy
almostlydia
Stay away from him - NC
Peace. J
So Sorry