A decision

A decision
Posted July 30, 2010 - 3:54am
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Yesterday evening I was feeling so low. I wanted to write here again for support, because I felt that the abuse had left me stronger but scarred and lonely. I felt like I was never going to be with someone again.
I continue feeling that I must stay alone, I feel this stronger and stronger every day. But yesterday I decided not to give in to this feeling of deception. I closed the pc and went to sleep. Talking with God.

This morning I woke up with my decision. It was laready inside me.
I will subscribe to University for my second University degree. Ok I am 42. Who cares?

I am happy. It was just like delivering an idea.....painful but totally worthwhile.

I will continue to pursue my little political career and I will study. I will start in September.

I am not finished yet. Life is not over. I am whole as I have always been.

FUCK YOU NARCS!

‹ Happy Birthday Lisa! Glee ›
secondchance's picture

yay us!

August 1, 2010 - 6:39pm — secondchance

I am 50 and haven't worked since Ronald Reagan was in office but I have gone back to school to get my paralegal certificate! woohoo!

happydaysahead's picture

Me too !!

August 1, 2010 - 4:19pm — happydaysahead

I am planning on going back to school in the fall to get my Master's degree. Been a long time since I have been in school, but it is something I have always wanted to do and dammit, it is time to do something for me !! :)

broken23's picture

thats awesome marline. its

July 30, 2010 - 12:07pm — broken23

thats awesome marline. its never too late with education. we are always growing emotionally, spiritually and its great to keep on growing academically as well.
xo

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Marilene

July 30, 2010 - 8:18am — helldweller

Oh! I forgot to mention that when I was in graduate school there was a gentleman in one of my classes who was getting his Bachelors degree. He was the uncle of Harold Ramis, the actor and writer, and he was almost 80 years old at the time! We had a big graduation party for him and Harold and his wife came. The smile on this man's face was sweet!

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Mariline

July 30, 2010 - 8:16am — helldweller

Fantastic! That is such great news! I have been turning around in my head whether I should go back for my Ph.D.--just fling all cares to the wind. I'll be 42 in October. You inspire me!

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Decision

July 30, 2010 - 7:19am — NancyM

If it is any consolation, I am still deciding on my first degree, and I am 42 as well. Got halfway through one, but....geez, life choices made me give it up. U GO GIRL!!

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Oh my goodness this is great

July 30, 2010 - 5:13am — Scoop

Oh my goodness this is great news ... wouldnt it be great if we could use this post to explore our plans for the future how ever big or small . Having a goal and going for it is what life is about , im telling you ! Everyone knows i got myself a boat , this idea started about a year ago as a tiny little thought i had at the tea table with my family "i might buy a boat " i mused ... and the thought grew and grew and it became reality !!!
Come on what are our plans for the future ?

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Marilene and Scoop

August 1, 2010 - 4:27pm — almostlydia

Good for you, Marilene! It's amazing isn't it what making a plan for survival does to begin to turn things around. I had just told someone here to start trying to make plans. This is the only thing that ever saved me from many moments of despair. Like magic, I had hope again.

Scoop, I think that is a great idea to start a thread on that. It is always, always the only thing that ever got me thru - having a plan. Do it.

Mariline's picture

I wrote "deception" but I

July 30, 2010 - 3:56am — Mariline

I wrote "deception" but I meant "defeat". Sorry, my English sometimes gets confused :-)))) it's not my mother tongue.

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Mariline

August 1, 2010 - 5:33pm — MovinOnUp

This is great news! I'm so happy you've decided to move forward by going back to school.

Forward HO!!!!!