If, God forbid, he should have to help me do something he would always say--"trying to show/teach (yeah cuz I am just dumb right you big ASSHOLE) you anything is like teaching a retard how to ride a bike"

And then there was the time he borrowed money from me to pay for his and his daughter's plane tickets (we lived together at the time, but he was paying for his daughter and his part of the trip and I was paying for mine and my son's part) and when I asked him about when he might pay me back cuz I needed the $$ to buy my son soccer shoes he called me "a cheap MFing c*nt"

Then let's not forget, after he moved out and moved back with his mommy but we were still together (what a fricking joke, but yeah), I gave him my son's TV so when his son would come to visit on weekends, he would have something to play his Xbox on. Well, turned out he was messing with the coke addicted whore, unbeknownst to me, and he had the balls to take MY tv to her house so her kids could use it to play their Wii and to keep her kids out of the way. Anyhow, I noticed one day that the TV was not at his mom's, well not where it always had been and he told me he took it upstairs for his mom to use. Well, one weekend when we had picked up his son, his son asked if he (N) has gotten the tv back fron the coke whore (he did not say that, but I will not type IT'S name). I just looked at my N in the car and said and where is my TV ?? Thought you moved it upstairs for your mom. He looked at me and told me to quit being such a stingy, selfish bitch cuz I had plenty of money to buy another and the coke whore was broke and really needed it. Uhmmmmm, ok well I am not a provider for some crack whore. End of story, yes, I got my son's TV back and if that makes me a selfish bitch, well, ok. So even though he had gotten busted out in a lie, I was the stingy and selfish one !!

HELLO.

* I can't believe I am going to put my ----- in someone else!
* I don't burp the freezer bags well enough
* My arms are too skinny
* He prefers dark haired women
* I am afraid I will meet someone else I like and never find my way back to you.
* I don't wash my hands often enough
* I don't make enough money, keep my car perfect, nor drive a BMW
* I don't use enough light to put on makeup and I have embarrassed him
* Our biggest problem to him was I wouldn't let him tell me how to do things or be without getting upset
* I have a few animals and its out of his comfort zone...I had them when we met 5 years ago.
* He doesn't like my decorating...he likes minimal! I stage and decorate homes for a living

Blah, blah, blah

Not directed towards me, but on of the worst things ever -

His boss has a young (maybe 12 year old) daughter who has an inoperable brain tumor. His boss is in and out of the office while she is in hospice. When he is at work, he is sometimes disconnected - understandably!

He was complaining about work and, I kid you not, he said she needs to go ahead and die. It will be better for everyone and that business needs to continue.

He made several phone calls lining up a continuation of business plan with the other VPs for when she does pass. I am sure he seemed responsible and thoughtful when he made the calls. Only I know that he is impatient and waiting for her to die - willing her to do so. Sick f*ck!

It's always about them... all this hurtful crap they come out with - I am convinced, it's so THEY can feel better about themselves.

It's not me its someone else.

If the crap is projected onto someone else - THEY don't have to deal with it - therefore THEY feel better.

Talk about no empathy

After he'd made it clear he'd never speak to me again "don't go stringing yourself up or hacking off an arm though, you're still ok for a bird"

"was thinking of getting a camper van for me and the kids. And maybe one day me, the kids and a bird"

"women - all they want to do is suck the sperm out of you" (while we were having sex)

"uhm you've got 3 ping pong balls on your c*nt" and laughed, turning to go to sleep. (he'd told me to trust him with a 'toy' he'd bought and that's what he did to me. Scared me to death too. I couldn't get them out and he took great pleasure in helping me, then feigned disgust at what he'd just had to do.

"I don't want a relationship. I'm enjoying my free time. You can come round and w*nk a bit, I might even do your *rse but I don't want any ties" (this is the same man who said he loved having a girlfriend, and eventually introduced me to his family)

after he'd dumped me by text and called me names "I'm not being nasty, you're interpreting it as nasty. Smile"

And this is the man I wanted to be safe when they were hunting down an armed fugitive this week (he's a cop). And he couldn't even be nice about that. What was I thinking. I'm so low after breaking NC I just want to disappear. I'm actually tired of being here, does anyone else feel the same?

what a dick

Yesterday when I told him that I hate him and that me makes me so mad he said:
"Yeah but you love my cock so we are all good"

then continued to say:
"You love mine! hahah! so who are you f*cking now a days anyway?"

when I told him that is none of his business he just said "nice" like he didnt care in the first place. I hate him!