pegasas269's story
pegasas269's story
I have actually considered taking back the narc who recently tried to kill me and got away with it.
the reason? the new boyfriend, whom i've known as a friend for years, has turned out to be worse in many ways. it's not something you can really put your finger on. problem is that he makes alot more money and is very used to women who have no income and he can just walk on them. it seems that every time i try to contribute to things he punishes me for it in weird little ways. it's so sneaky and underhanded that nobody could really see what he's doing. as bad as the other one was, he wasn't this perpetually cruel. i could sleep at night with the other one most of the time and not worry about him hurting me then.
i have severe pain all the time and now that this one has learned how to hurt me without anyone knowing... he does it all night long. i can't sleep till he goes to work. which many times he doesn't do till very late because he can get away with it and he knows it means i will be in tremendous pain the whole next day and have no real sleep. i can't say anything about it to anyone. i'm so stuck and lost and i actually keep wanting to call my ex and tell him and let him rescue me. i know my ex would LOVE that. he wants to be that guy so bad. he would jump at the chance to show all how he "saved" me. i'm just stuck and broken and don't know what to do. i have nobody i can talk to. i look like an idiot for all of this. so i'm keeping my mouth shut and looking for a way out. this was the only place i could let it out so...
welcome pegasus269
Hello sweetheart!
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