Seen my XN today-

Seen my XN today-
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I passed his car as he was on his way to my house. He went by two of my gyms and finally found me at a coffee bar I never go to as I don't cheat on Starbucks. Anyway, he came in and sat down to talk with me. Surprisingly, I felt numb, no feelings, no love-really no attraction. He proceeded to talk about how depressed he was and how much he's been trying to contact me and so forth, so on,blah blah. I was indifferent cause I felt that way. As he spoke, all I could think about were "all lies". He said, since I dropped him and never contacted him for 5 weeks, he "needed" to see me. Yeah, right-why couldn't he just say- he just needed to #$ck and control me and then maybe I would have had an ounce of respect for him. He said" i know you don't want anything to do with me, but I can't let 5 yrs go, I have a heart, even though you think I don't"- I had no response to really anything he had to say, nor did I care to say anything. All I could think about is that his supply has run low and he's trying to get his old supply back as he said" I've lost a part of me, I have no energy" . Whatever actor!!!! Anyhow, I told him, I had to go and that was it. I'm glad though I had no feelings at all and that he had absolutely no affect on me. I did answer one of his questions. He asked, did you miss me? and i said "no"!

Monica's picture

This is unbelievable.......

I would have been 5 weeks NC today. When I read enoughalready's post, I was both proud and happy that she reacted the way she did when he showed up unexpectedly on her but I was also VERY nervous and antsy because I knew this Friday (today) would be 5 weeks for me, too. (And only because he did end-runs around my NC because of professional connections, which I am trying hard to break despite the economy.) Well...today he called. It was a legitimate, professional call. (Damn it.) I stayed professional, nothing personal, stayed neutral, talked business (and only what was necessary) and left it at that. However...a sweet possible result. It seemed to me that he was trying to "cover" his own involvement in some nasty business that may just come back and bite him in the butt...and hopefully cost him his job. It's a long shot but I definitely heard the underlying issue and sensed the fear. Perhaps he thinks I will still stand up for him. NOT. NEVER. If you screwed up, I will NOT be there to bail you out in any way, shape or form! A very slight glimmer of hope that he will finally be caught and pay a heavy price. I know it's unlikely as N/P's can talk their way out of anything. But I heard and sensed the fear and know he screwed up and might be caught. But just staying neutral and not caving into him was sweet for me!!

angela0714's picture

So Proud of You!!

You made it thru a big milestone. I only hope if I run into my XN that I display the same attitude. There's been no contact for 7 weeks and I'm hanging in there. The thought of him both haunts and hurts me still. We were together 6 years. 3 of them dating and 3 married. He wounded me so deeply, and without the least bit of conscience. No Contact is the only way I can separate from him because he's a toxic and cruel man.
You're an inspiration.

enoughalready's picture

angela0714

7 weeks is great. Yes, they have a way to deeply wound our spirit. But for some reason, I was so numb to him, I sat back and all I could see is an empty soul. Reading books, acquiring knowledge daily and visiting this website had a huge effect on me. And honestly, I found out a few days ago I have an "autoimmune disease" -lupus? raynauds? Stress-all stress due to the 5 years of my dysfunctional relationship with him. And I asked myself, would he be there for me? Knowing the answer, it turned off any desire to ever see or be with him as he had NEVER been there for me for anything including illness. Why bother to ever contact someone who only cares of himself?

TexN's picture

Woohoo!!!

Good for you! That S.O.B. couldn't appreciate you when he had you & now he's tryin to crawl back. He can crawl back under the rock he came out of! One narc down, a trillion more to go!!!

woundedsoul36's picture

Have You Guys

have you guys seen the movie "Alfie" with Jude Law? I read somewhere online that it was about a narcissist...so of course, I got it from itunes. It doesn't get really indepth, but the character is definetly a somatic narcissist

quietude's picture

enoughalready

YES, I believe that's also known as STALKING??
Notice it's all about poor him. HE'S depressed, HE needed, and HE can't let 5 years go.
He has a heart? Sorry but he's the tin man BEFORE visiting the wizard!
Good for you to keep up the couldn't care less attitude. Next time, ignore. If he follows you again or shows up at your home, call the cops. You may consider a protective order...

woundedsoul36's picture

ewwwww...

Girl, I don't know what I'd do if I saw my N.
Remaining no contact has been easy as after I told him exactly how he "really was"
he hasn't really contacted me--->withdraw YET AGAIN
I'm not sure he will ever try to contact me, because the person I THOUGHT HE WAS...would be too dignified to do such a thing (in reality, too superior).

enoughalready's picture

woundedsoul

oh...he will if you are so unlucky. I wished I didn't see him, I think he was stalking me as he "needed" to tell me how lonely and sad he was.....he gets the "actor of the day award". When he runs out of supply, he'll come running back to you. I thought the same thing but...

Barbara's picture

stalker

ever notice how they COUNT on the fact that we would NEVER casually hurt someone with no feelings - but if THEY do it - it's supposed to be ok.

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Repetition does not transform a lie into the truth. - Franklin D. Roosevelt

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