I read where living with a psychopath often leaves the victims with immune disorders and various illnesses. I can respect that, for I too have endured perpetual years of stress, confusion, unfaltering attempts to get things back to the way they were in the beginning. Years of trying to keep my head up in quicksand. No small wonder our bodies have been pushed to their limits. I haven't gotten my immune disorder tests back yet, but he did leave me with herpes 1 and 2. I will not tell him, for that would only give him joy. I'm not even 4 months out of the marriage, and still face lots of legal issues with him, for the drain is no where near over. I find it fitting to say "only the strong survive". If I can endure this legal fiasco against him, for the sake of the children, and be fortunate even to provide a home for us, since he has illegally arranged for that not to happen....then I will look forward to looking again for my personality, which was lost somewhere along the way. We have to hang in there. Try to take care of yourself. Buy a really good organic liquid vitamin that your body can absorb. Do things with normal people and try to find moments where you forget. I know in time, we will heal. This forum is a necessary nutrient for that too...........Good luck!