I deactivated the fake FB profile where I was friends with her. Now I just have to promise myself I will NOT google her or him. I don't even care about him anymore. I just care about what she is doing. I'm a weird-ass. Well I had a question, if i go to the datingpsychos website where I've posted a profile of him to change the pic or update the description, is that violating NC?

I started NC on March 1st and was doing really well. I have a fake FB profile and am friends with the OW. She doesn't know it's me of course. Her brother got married March 20th and she posted pictures on her profile. I couldn't resist and looked at them. I was surprised to see the N was her date and had completely infiltrated the wedding festivities. He was involved behind the scenes and even took a picture with the mom. It was pretty disgusting seeing that after a month and knowing that he was brainwashing this family on purpose. The wedding was huge, must have been like 500+ people and very pricey. I'm sure he thinks that her parents will be spending that on his wedding once he proposes to this girl. The girl looked good too but I couldn't help but notice that there was some awkwardness in their body language. He seemed kind of standoffish the whole time. And in each picture he was holding his cell phone, as if waiting for someone to call. It was just weird.
I didn't do anything after looking at the pictures. I actually felt really good knowing that she was stuck with his a$$. Then yesterday I googled her just out of curiousity and a docket pulled up saying she has to appear in court April 1st for 3 violations: failure to provide insurance, speeding 86/60mph and failure to appear. Ironically the first two offenses occured the first day I went NC! :) The failure to appear was March 24th. I'm positive that Narc had something to do with this. Maybe she was going to see him and had to rush because he claimed to be dying or something. You know how those N's are dramaqueens!
Anyway, I de-cluttered my whole life of this man EXCEPT for this one FB profile. It's not even his, but his GF's and the only reason I kept it was because it took a little social engineering prowess to even get to the point of her accepting me as a friend. I just don't want to give it up. But as long as I have it, I know that I am indirectly in contact w/the N because I know they are together through her. I guess I want to keep it because I'm hoping one day I will sign in and see that she has a new man and dumped his butt. Then I will delete the profile. But it could also happen that one day I sign in and there she is with a Walmart Cubic Zirconia ring (prob all he can afford) and they are engaged...I'm not sure how I would feel about that. But I know that I FOR SURE am better off and that her HELL is just about to begin. I really hate the fact that I don't have any control over the situation. It's basically a train wreck that I have to watch occur. I shouldn't even care because I don't know this girl and after I exposed him she obviously doesn't care about his past either. It's like she just wants to get married. Even on her profile she wrote that she LOVES weddings! I just can't imagine giving my whole life up to someone just so they would marry me. I mean that is so desperate. But I guess I was there last year when I met the N and did whatever he wanted me to...
Anyway, any thoughts on a course of action?
FYI - N is still listed on datingpsychos.com. Ha!

close to two months,

Going strong. I get an urge to look at the wedding website of the - ok get ready - N's girlfriend's brother. He is getting married on March 20th and the only reason I know is because I met his fiancee during NYE. Anyway, his fiancee is a BEAUTIFUL model and the brother is not really all that good-looking...but he (or his dad at least) is loaded. Maybe she is an N just like my N who went after the brother's sister for the money, which I warned her about. Sorry if that came out complicated. Anywhooo, i HAVE NOT looked at the website but I know I will be tempted to after the wedding takes place. Primarily to see if the N is still in the picture. I should not really care but I am curious if my warning her worked or if she's brainwashed for the long haul. In addition, this would be indirect contact (I'm pretty sure it falls under one of bullet points in that No Contact summary) and I am doing so well I doubt I will mess it up. But just wanted to know your thoughts.

Congrats on 1 month of NC Seancunningham! That's amazing! Today is my 9th day of NC. Slowly feeling better, but much more progress to go!

Yesterday (Monday) made it a full 8 days without contact. The only thing that I find difficult is when I go back into those "evil thoughts." When I look at the situation in my mind and all those angry, jealous, and vindictive feelings against him come back. This morning I woke up for the first time in a week thinking about the things we did together and how it all seemed so real and innocent. I wondered if I would ever find a man that could be THAT affectionate and THAT real with me. But the guy is a fake. None of it was real. That is still so hard to believe, so hard to swallow. I want to get to a point that he is completely erased from my life. I want to get to a point that even if I do see him and I'm alone, I can handle it with class, no emotion, and grace. And truly...have no aftershock. I wish, I hope, I pray. :)

Tomorrow will be one full week of NC. It's been alright as I've kept myself extremely busy. Last night I played Whirlyball and met a lot of guys from my church. I felt very comfortable and was completely myself. I noticed that I was a little more distant and aloof which worked well. I also sucked at Whirlyball which got me a lot of teasing but it was playful, not hurtful. I plan on meeting more people and fine-tuning the way I am in social situations (or perceived anyway). There was a guy there with his girlfriend and he totally reminded me of the N. He was also from the same city and had this kind of bad-boy image that often attracts me. I noticed also that I get attracted when a guy does not give me attention. This is something that I completely have to work on. I don't know why I feel like I need any guy's attention unless I am insecure with myself. And I think that is something that needs to change.

I had some thoughts about him and his GF. Just kind of ran the whole situation through my head on fast forward. It was a huge waste of time for me to be involved in that hot mess is what I realized. Just totally not worth it. Still feel anger but not as strong as before when I was looking at his/her facebook. It really helps to not look or see anything associated with the N. I'm looking forward to a busy weekend and meeting new people! The N-radar will totally be on and discerning! :)

Hello women!
Made another day with no contact. Looking forward to many more!