Hi all.... I am actually feeling like I might be open to going on a date or meeting a person. Still not sure how I will feel if I am really in front of a man on a date. I may not be ready and just tear him apart for no good reason, except that there is a possibility that he is a narc.
I would NEVER ever in my life EVER do any online dating like eharmony, Match.com, etc, given what has happened to me when I used those services (met horribly pathological evil abusive men).
A friend sent me an email about "It's Just Lunch"... this is actually the 4th time she sent it to me. It is a a bit of a matchmaking service, where they match you up with a certain number of dates. I think the fee is like 2 grand or something. Given the price I assumed (although I could be VERY wrong) that the men may be a bit more serious about finding a dating partner.
Thing is... I am kinda attracted to men outside of my race (although I date guys of my race too, for sure)-- but men in general don't approach me that often. Just lots of smiles or a little hello.... but nothing else (perhaps they were taken- who knows). The ones who come on full force with tons of charisma, charm, and confidence are...... you guessed it- NARCS!!! Otherwise, the nice quiet ones that I would love to talk to don't approach me.
I went to a fun get together with some new friends last night and the hosts boyfriend was the coolest, most laid back 'normal' guy. We had a blast with him. She just joked around with him and focused on us without having to worry about his reaction or HIS attention needs. I would like to feel that way with a man... rather than an image obsessed all about him freak of a creature who calls himself my boyfriend whils screwing escorts, ex girlfriends, and new supply... blah!! Who gets pissed if my attention isn't solely on him- causing me to look like a nervous wreck in front of everyone.
Anyway--I would like to date a bit... esp since i don't feel broken anymore ;o)
I just wonder if anyone has used this service before.... what do you all think of it.