Hey everybody.

Hope that you are going ok, and even better than that, that you are getting healed and further and further away from those disgusting narcs.
Guys, I had to get out my frustrations and I thought you might relate or understand.
I am a bit surprised at myself today I have a huge huge rage inside and I don't know what to do. I am not usually an angry person, I am patient and take a lot of crap usually.

I have been NC since August with the ex and after a few stalking incidents and some intervention by higher authorities he has finally left me alone. I am getting counselling and doing all to heal and it has come along pretty well, all things considered. I feel like a weight got lifted from my shoulders.

I came to realise a lot about other people in my life, there are a lot of narcs in there I think. But thank God some true friends as well. I had a best friend who abandoned me when I was going through the worst and it really hurt. I was really generous with her, she still has a lot of things that she borrowed. I feel really used. I am still in contact with her but every time there is contact I feel so so angry!! And this is only via text and a couple of phonecalls! I am ashamed at my bitchy reactions inside I don't like it at all. And why towards this particular friend and not the narc himself?

Oh no, I sound like a narc! I don't think I ever got this mad at the ex, just scared and traumatised. I am one angry woman! I am scared of this anger inside. It's really nasty.

Is this a sign to stay away from the friend? Is it NC for her as well? Maybe finally I am listening to my gut that is screaming out to me, this person is no good? I feel a huge sense of injustice about how I was treated by this friend but I have to move on and not get bitter. I have decided not to discuss this with her as I see no point and may lead to further hurt from her.

Did anyone have that happen to them? Or can someone say something that might calm me down?
I feel like a nutter. Help!