Self-Loathing
Self-Loathing
I am a new member still working on a draft of my story with an N (it's pathetically long!), but I have been having a really hard time lately.
I'm at the stage where I am absolutely hating myself for going back to him/giving him what he wants well after the fact he did unspeakable things to me, lead me on for months only to kick me down, betrayed me, stood me up, etc, etc, etc.
I'm probably more angry at myself for being so dumb/weak/gullible in the face of him coming back and lying to me again than the fact he did it in the first place.
All the many months old memories of him being so awful to me come back in droves as a way of saying "even though he did all that, you still went back to him?!"
Does anyone have any similar experiences/useful techniques to get over regret? I am still doing NC of course.
Regret is part of the
Jackie
Jackie
Thank you so much for
Welcome Jackie
Our stories sound VERY
Jackie
jackie
I've actually been there
Welcome Jackie:) All very