Still in shock and need guidance

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#1 Apr 21 - 12PM
daisy_chain
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Still in shock and need guidance

My whole experience of leaving my N happened very recently and happened really fast.

I realize my path to healing is going to take a while and I am constantly remembering to be patient and be kind to myself.

It was only February when the abuse really kicked into high gear. It was only 2 weeks ago that I told him to leave. It was only a week ago I had the police contact him to tell him to not contact me ever again. I am feeling relieved that it has happened so quickly and am very proud of myself for getting the situation under control.

I am getting comfortable with NC. I have blocked on phone, email goes to junk folder and completely blocked on FB. Just struggling a little and going through withdrawal. I wake up in the middle of the night each night with nightmares, feeling shock and pain.

I am seeing a therapist once a week and active in this forum - plus staying connected with my friends. I am reading a book on codependency and it is a real eye-opener. I feel like I have been one all my life and really wanting to break free from it and accept myself. My N was (almost) a gift in a way that the experience has made me aware of myself and my patterns.

I am working on the goodbye letters and working on my self-esteem, co-dependency. I am having weak moments, wondering about him and doubting myself. This is such a strange experience, because I know that he was actually never there. It was all an illusion - finding that hard to process.

I am still connected to his family and friends on FB - do I need to block? I can also see his photos on Instagram, Does anyone know how I can completely block that?

If anyone has any tips or advice for me regarding the healing process, please share. Thanks

Apr 21 - 1PM
spinning
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dear daisy_chain,

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Apr 22 - 10AM (Reply to #2)
daisy_chain
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Thank you for this - your

Apr 24 - 7AM (Reply to #4)
tiredofthisaddiction
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Daisy, if you go into

Apr 22 - 11AM (Reply to #3)
spinning
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dear daisy_chain,

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