You don't exist.....

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#1 May 18 - 3PM
toomuch
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You don't exist.....

I just had a trigger .. and I wanted to share it because it is pissing me off... I remember asking "it" how he just went about his weekend without wondering what i was doing etc... - I always wondered what he was up to because I was hooked - exactly where he wanted me! I mean this guy completely loved everything about me ... everything - he was just living as a brother/sister with his "partner" because of the kids ... (F me) He replied If we are not together you don't exist ??????? WTF did that mean? I was really confused about that statement but I was obviously not very bright when it came to red flags - I just thought wow he is so strong - doing what he has to to get through the days ... I need to learn how to cope better. This was so long ago and things just keep popping into my head - the red flags - geez it makes me feel so stupid - when I am most certainly not, whatever .. what is done is done - he married his partner after waiting a little longer in the "game" of life he lives, and I am sure prince charming is the most faithful, charming of them all. I had a few drinks and unblocked him from fb one night so I could see what he looked like - his relationship status was it's complicated lmao!! So I sent him a message that said - "It's complicated again ? Really ?- next day his status changed backed to "married" what a fool ... a coward and a fool ... and yeah I know I should not have checked - but a bottle of wine makes people even more stupid - of course I blocked him again.

May 23 - 9AM
Used
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Now I am out of it for so

May 22 - 10PM
toomuch
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Thank You Goldie

May 23 - 1AM (Reply to #5)
Lookforward
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Hi Toomuch, maybe have a one

May 21 - 8PM
Lookforward
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i think there was a post some

May 21 - 9PM (Reply to #2)
toomuch
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Thank you

May 22 - 10AM (Reply to #3)
Goldie
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This is where most in early recovery.....